Yo, lady. I hear your nokia ringtone in the background. It’s distracting me and my ability to be grammatically correct.
My palm is feeling extraordinarily itchy today. According to some strange Filipino superstition, it may just be round about that time to go buy me a lottery ticket and gamble away my funds because itchy palm apparently equals some richness comin’ atcha. But I would never! Partially because I don’t believe it and partially because I am low low low in the funds department.
So, with this being my blog, I will map out certain things. I know from estimated knowledge that only about a handful of people read my blogs. Which is really well and truly okay by me. Because only those willing to sit through my babble are the ones I’m willing to share my dreams with anyway!
When I write these blogs, I’m basically turning this:
into this:
Yup. True story. Oh and apparently, stress over tangled christmas lights makes me turn into an eccentric white boy. Yes.
I’m detangling and destressing as I write, so to speak.
Anyway, moving onto some more coherent psycho-babble.
I’ve been picking my brain as to what to study or do next year. My mind is pretty calm right now. Quite frankly, I’m worried at how calm I’ve been lately. It’s not like me at all. But I quite enjoy it. It’s nice working with the universe and taking good care of your health because, every once in awhile, your mind releases some good ol’ euphoric bursts and you’re suddenly high on the possibilities opened up for you.
Here are the options on my mind:
Music
Communications
Languages
I want to be smart about my decision but I don’t want to overthink. Here’s how I see it. I’ve been literally holding back on what I’ve wanted to do because:
a) I’m insecure about my capacity to take on those subjects.
b) I really cannot decide between any of those.
c) I’m worried I will surely find out I have no talent in any of the three.
and last but not least,
d) I have no money.
Now, come to think of it, those reasons haven’t actually dispersed in my mind. But slowly, I’m learning to turn them off. Reason being:
a) If I continue to call myself weak and incapable, that is what I will become.
b) If I do not decide, I spend that time hesitating doing nothing. Might as well give them all a shot one by one.
c) Shut up, Joana. Seriously.
and
d) You have a job, woman! Save!
Well looky here.
Untangled lights.
*sighs with relief*
that picture of the white guy and the lights made me lol!
.. im always commenting on ur blogs haha
jomee love, dont ever think that you are not good enough.. i think you would excel in any of those chosen aspects to study, you are far more capable then you give yourself credit for
“you need to learn to let go of whatever it is that makes you think that you’re not good enough. cause that’s when you’re gna beat this, when you learn that YOU matter”
I love that you’re one of the handful who comment Ally =) don’ and thank you for your words! You’re wonderful =)
WTH that was meant to say “don’t stop!” LOOOOL oops grammar fail
i wont stop lol
… i stalk you
hahaha
I find it annoying about your WordPress theme that this comment box is grey but when I click it it suddenly turns white! AAGHH (pronounced aaag)
Anyway, I feel the same way as you do after blogging. It’s a good, relaxing feeling to have. Nice way to clear your mind.
I say, shutup. I think you are very, very capable of doing whatever you decide to study. I’ll be on the sidelines of your life cheering. Gimme a J! Gimme an O! And so on.